I sold my yoga mat yesterday.  

LET ME EXPLAIN!

I wasn’t using it.  My practice is all over the place and nowhere near the studio right now.  It sits in my car unless I can find time to unroll it at the studio like once a month.  I practice on my rug in my room and on the mats at the gym or just on the grass.

I found someone who really wanted to start their practice up again and my mat was a great mat for this person.  It’s extra thick and extra long (; and it’s two years old but still in great condition.

I’m just waiting for my next paycheck to place an order on a new mat.  The mat I sold was just way too heavy for me and I’m craving something more lightweight so it’s comfortable when Im riding my bike to the studio when I start craving a hot room in the fall.

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My new work schedule has really taken a toll on my motivation to teach.  I haven’t given up the dream or desire to teach one day but right now I need to focus on being a chef.  It’s a little funny because  I feel like I need my practice more than ever right now and it’s transformed into such a different thing since I started.  So have I, though 🙂

Yogi in the kitchen episode 1

Tonight at work the chef working expo told me to stop and take a deep breath.  I KNOW, RIGHT?!  I’m Miss Yoga Teacher here, and this guy who barely has any skin left he’s so covered in tattoos, (nicest guy in the world actually) is telling ME to take a deep inhale and exhale and slow down whenever I think I’m in a hurry.  I needed it and he could tell.  I was so grateful.

The teacher appears when the student is ready and anyone or anything can be a teacher.  The more I practice yoga the more I begin to see my experiences as moments to be present for. There are moments that test my strength, there are opportunities to come back to my breath.  One time in Jane James’ class at Center for Yoga said something crazy (true) during a long holding Warrior 2.  She said “You may not know what you’re training for right now, but when that moment comes, you’ll be that much more ready if you can stay with your breath here.”  She was totally right, all of this yoga practice is really for the moments off the mat when I need to keep my cool and remain calm.  I’m strengthening my mental response to stress and finding my truth every time I step on my mat.

i miss writing

I do!  It’s something I am setting a goal today to make more time for.  I’ve been making time for a lot of other self care in my life lately but it caused me to neglect my writing.  This stops today.

Here is a life update:  I started 2 new jobs at restaurants, quit one and then started a new business at home as a personal chef. Here’s part of an order I sent out..


I feel really strong in my home practice lately.  My yogi gym workouts are a great supplement when I can’t get in the studio.

I got a bike!

I’ve been making up a lot of new healthy recipes lately.

^^^zucchini noodles with hohmmade sesame peanut sauce and raw veggies.

No great ephiphanies lately, just trying to stay present and do my best at work these days.  Namaste.

Transitioning

I’m in a difficult position.

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Let me throw some cliches out there because I need to get it out of my system.  This week, “It’s never about the pose but how you get there” and  “It’s not about the destination, it’s the journey” were so prevalent in my life that I could not even.  I just got back from my first yoga class at a studio since memorial day and boy do I feel like blogging again.

Also I have time and energy to sit down and blog because I’ve been unemployed for 6 days now.  Yup.   I wasn’t happy where I was so I had to move on.   New things may be on their way but I will wait to blog about that.

Time to fly.

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My comfort zone makes me uncomfortable lately.  I have more fun when I run from it.  Letting myself play has been great medicine.

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Namaste.

i am a creator

I know it’s been a million years since I’ve blogged but I just haven’t had time to sit down.  I moved back to Royal Oak and took a new job as the kitchen manager at a restaurant in downtown Detroit (more on that later) the same week.

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You know how they (yoga teachers) say “practice, all is coming” and “what you seek is seeking you” and “you’re exactly where you’re supposed to be”?  All of those things held true for me in some way or another in the past two weeks so forgive me for not blogging, I’ve been having an overload of yoga epiphanies lately.  Everyday I’m like, “Ohm My g-d.  Yes.”

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The one that keeps sticking for me is the idea that I create my reality.  I just keep reminding myself that I am a creator.  My thoughts create energy. It just works.  Sorry, I drank too much green juice at work today.

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My favorite part about my new job is that I get to be creative and that I have a lot of freedom.  I really feel like I can be my authentic self here.  I just want to come in everyday and do my best.  I am already so much happier.  Another sweet thing about my job is that it’s right next door to Citizen Yoga Detroit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Another great place to learn to find freedom.

I’m planning to have another feedback class on Friday afternoon, I’m excited 🙂 okay goodnight Namaste

Good things are coming

Sometimes when I go to blog I end up with a million tabs (mostly facebook) open and end up doing something else.  Other times an idea greets and I can’t ignore it, the words flow without apprehension.  My asana hurts from sitting too long.   This is inconvenient but I like it better that way because it feels genuine and authentic, rather than forced.  I don’t always have bursts of creativity to rely on all the time, I have to wait for the waves.  It’s frustrating when you want to keep putting out content but your brain feels empty.  The same thing happens to me in yoga when I don’t get something right away, I turn into a toddler.  The only thing you really can do in the mean time is trust the process and have faith in yourself.  You’re exactly where you’re supposed to be. 

bird of paradise

BIG NEWS COMING SOON! STAY TUNED!

sup·port (in the streets + on the mat)

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(my friends are very supportive)

I know this is a yoga blog but there’s something you guys need to know about me and I think it’s best to be up front about it: I am also runner.  I ran *varsity* cross country and track in high school, I ran a half marathon and I belong to a running club.  Running is one of my favorite things to do but I need the support of other people to do it.  There are people who can just throw on their running shoes and hit the pavement.  They’re all over, I see them all the time when I’m driving. They never smile…maybe they should join my running club 😉

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“If you want to go fast, go alone. If you want to go far, go together”

Last night I ran for the first time since October.  My hips needed a break and then winter happened.  Spring came in strong this week so I decided it was time to test the old gams out; Running For Brews Royal Oak, my local running and shenanigans club, was having a Pre-St. Patty’s Day 5k run.  It’s not a race, it’s just a bunch of cool people coming together to run and have fun.  The last time I ran was with these people so I knew it was now I wanted to start back up again.

In the begining was having a great run and sticking with a pack but then about 2.5 miles in I thought I was going to puke and walked it off for a few breaths.  The guy I was neck and neck with the whole run called out to ask if I was okay and encouraged me to pick it back up.  He caught up with me and offered me some of his camelbak water, which totally brought me back to life and I was so grateful.  I didn’t even realize how much I was burning up, I was way over dressed for the weather.  There was so snow on the ground AND it was humid: Pure Michigan, am I right?  He stuck with me and chatted for another half mile.  We even picked up another straggler. I encouraged him to kick it to the finish strong but really I had to drop back to finally spew my guts out.  I ralfed hard and walked the final 0.1 mile to the bar where I was met with high fives and sweaty hugs.

After the run I met up with my friend Jack to practice teaching yoga.  He’s just a baby yogi, so thirsty to learn.  I’m so grateful to have a friend that wants to deepen their practice and help me grow as a teacher.   It’s funny, whenever I teach him I end up learning more.  Last night reminded me why I started practicing and more importantly, why I stuck with it.  Connections form when people support each other.  Those connections become the foundations we build upon.  Yoga isn’t just this thing we do together,  yoga literally means union.  Namaste.

“If you want to go fast, go alone. If you want to go far, go together”
*****I just want to include that I’m so grateful for all the support I’ve been receiving lately from my friends and family.  You guys are the universe to me.  I’m eternally grateful for all of you.*****

Yogi at the gym

I literally practiced my ass off so I went to the gym tonight for an emergency leg day.  This is not a blog post about taking a yoga class at the gym, this is a blog post about being a yogi at a gym.  When I’m at the gym I do exercises that support my yoga practice.  Sometimes I do versions of yoga poses, sometimes I do regular exercises with a yogi spin (and safe alignment of course.)

Today I kept track of my workout and wrote a few notes to myself along the way, like how I got weird looks while I used my ujjaiyi pranayama during tricep dips.  I also tried pull ups without the assist today at the encouragement of my friend James, a trainer and yoga teacher.  He said something like “I’m sure you have the lat strength” on Facebook chat and so I tried it and got 3!

💁 When I’m at the gym I don’t set a rep goal, I just do the exercise “until failure”  and adjust the intensity as I need.  This lets me push myself and keeps me from going overboard.

I’m getting in the habit of tracking my progress.  Today I recorded the weight I used for my leg exercises and the number of reps I got for pull ups and dips.  Here’s the workout I did

Ended it with a few minutes of reflection in the sauna.

Practice Notes:

  • Use Ujjaiyi pranayama during “regular exercises.”  Typically contracting movements are exhaling and expanding movements are inhaling.  Example : during pull ups I exhale on the up and inhale on the down.  You might get weird looks, deal with it.  Haters are just confused admirers.
  • “Dandasana – ups” get in the captains chair.  Maintain shoulders back, rooted tailbone, keep ribs in and chin back,  crown lifting.  Flex your feet and draw them up until your torso and legs make a right angle.  This is a suspended Dandasana, staff pose.  Hold until failure and repeat. Try your best to maintain the form.  Uddiyana banda comes in handy here.  Variations: reps, pike legs to straight, alternating legs.
  • Planks to chatturangas aka yogi push ups.  Practice your form here.  Elbows in, heart melted, tailbone rooted.  Lower down halfway, just until your elbows form right angles.
  • Plank knee to elbow/opposite elbow holds Plank arms (shoulders over wrists) with knee to same side or opposite elbow.  Hold until failure and then hold the plank when you switch instead of pressing back to downward dog.  Keep your heart melted.  
  • Take short stretch breaks between intense periods.  If I’m going to “rest” I use the heat I generated towards opening my hips or shoulders.

I killed this workout. 💀 


Next I’ll work on my ego.  Namaste and hella gains bro 🙉

Getting back to my hohm practice

I have a confession to make:  I have not practiced yoga in a studio in 11 days!  This is kind of a big deal for me.  It’s not like I was going to #yogaeverydamnday but I needed to take a step back from the studio for my own spiritual development. -__-     ikr  Let me explain:

When I’m regularly going to a studio I practice at home ALL THE TIME but by “practice” I mean kick up into handstands in my living room until I’m winded or sitting in hip openers in front of the television.  My home practice is bullshit and I know it.  I’m like a kid who only eats dessert.  Unless I’m teaching a private lesson student for the very first time or co-practicing with a friend I rarely lead myself through an entire practice from intention to corpse pose.  It’s time to change this because I believe it will make me a better teacher.  I wish I didn’t have to write a blog post to muster up the accountability to do it but it seems to be working.  Maybe I need to write my ideas out and see them front of me before I actually put them into action?   Motivation is funny.  I am literally lol as I write this so thank you for observing my process if you are still reading 🙂

How to practice yoga at home 

  • Bring your mat inside.This was huge for me.  My mat lives in my car unless I unroll it at the studio.  I never brought my mat inside so I never really practiced inside.
  • Wear whatever you want.I wore tribal print and plaid.  WHAT NOW?
  • Put on a space heater…or don’t.  I like a hot room but sometimes I don’t always feel like 90+ degrees after working in a kitchen.  Sometimes I like to see how warm I get on my own.
  • Play your own music.  Maybe I’ll post my playlist later 🙂
  • Practice yoga

Goals for my home practice:

  1. Blend intentional with intuitive.  This point needs its own blog post.
  2. Stay with my breath I won’t have the teacher or other students around to remind me, the responsibility is all mine.
  3. Go for at least an hour.   Seems like enough and not too much.
  4. Handstand as little as I can.  I need to eat my yoga veggies.  Handstands are my favorite but they’re not going to get better unless I nourish myself with the foundations of the practice.
  5. Take it easy when I should.  I don’t need to be so hard on myself.

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That being said,  I need to get back to the studio because I really really really really miss my friends!!!!!!!!!  😦  I can’t keep this studio fast I’m on up forever.  My plan is to purchase a membership somewhere next week keep both home and studio practices up.  I’ll let you know how it goes!  oh btw, Do you practice at home?  Do you have any tips? stories? ideas? do you only do your favorite poses like me because you’re a naughty yogi?

Namaste 🙂